Getting It Together…….

Insanity: Utterly Foolish or unreasonable

Have you ever heard the saying “Insanity is doing the same things, expecting different results?” Well, I can tell you a thing or two about that! This is a journey for me to heal: Mentally, Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually and Financially. There are some aspects of this journey I can do in my sleep, but others…specifically the physical part, hasn’t been that easy.

If you have ever been on a weight loss journey you may understand how difficult it can be at times. Fighting against your flesh, ESPECIALLY during the holidays is a fight I think even the best fighters would struggle with. I’ve noticed that I have a habit of rewarding myself for doing good, even if I haven’t reached my end goal. I have been >200lbs for at least 9/10yrs now, which has been very hard for me to accept since before I hit that 2+ I’ve spent a big chunk of my life between 150lb – 180lbs, even while pregnant with my two oldest. When I started this journey I had my mind set on entering 2023 @ at least 198lbs, I was determined to bring in the New Year in ONEDERland. Needless to say, I was doing good. SO GOOD. Then what did I do, I rewarded myself for being good. I took a break from the gym, I started enjoying the foods that I loved and missed, started having a drink after a long day of working. Then the one day, one meal, one drink started multiplying into DAYS, MEALS, and DRINKS.

But here is where it get’s tricky………..

GIVE YOURSELF GRACE!

Now, we understand how important it is that you give yourself grace to learn, grow, and do better… but finding the balance of not putting too much pressure on you for failing but at the same time holding yourself accountable to do what needs to be done that is the tricky part. That is where I am today. I know what needs to be done to reach my goal. I know how to do it, I just need to do it. I KNOW when I see that 1 on that scale, I can feel that joy today. I just need to remind myself of that joy in those moments when I’m struggling. Funny thing is, I’M CLOSE… SO CLOSE….. But again with weight loss, those pounds can be stubborn and sometimes you have to “kick it up a notch” as my mother would like to say; to see real success.

So as I enter into this new year not having achieved my 1st weight loss goal, I’m determined to remain focused as I close the year out and be ready to stop playing it safe and really do the work. I’m learning how you show up in one place, is usually how you show up in others. I know this journey God has me on is not going to be easy and I can’t half @$$ it. I appreciate how far I’ve come, I forgive myself for stopping, and I challenge myself to go even harder this time. It ain’t gonna be easy, but IT WILL get done.